spastikk

2012-02-04T07:54:00.002+08:00

Morning beautiful people. I am having depression due to boyf kene confinement. It sucks okay. It had to happen when i need him the most. Well you know, when you are having the time of the month. You need extra attention. Besides, ive already made up my mind to go shopping by myself on tuesday. Alaaa i always say only, in the end i never go.

Other than that, i dont have a date on Valentines Day. I know we are not suppose to celebrate, but i want to. Boyf will be in camp, so yeah.

Okay whatever, bye.

I no mood.

2012-01-09T15:46:00.004+08:00

Hi guys, its been too long since i last updated. So many things happen in 2011. Boyf is serving his national service. I missed him like so much. Im also currenly juggling two jobs but im working at AnF more. Please dont ask me why, because i dont have the answer with me. I dont have much things to say.

Anyway, those pictures are from sentosa, beach party. We were there for the countdown. It was hellaaaa fun cann! I would sooo want to go back there, but okay, i dont know. Elly was like cursing and swearing at me when i told her i might be addicted to so called "clubbing". Waaathaaaafakk. No really, i think i am. But of course, i dont go clubs. I want to one day. I wna get so wasted so that the next day i wont remember a thing and it wont be embarassing.

I feel soo, grown up. Im turning 20 this year and my mum has been pestering me to find a new job. The truth she doesnt know that, i will soon get a full time job. I mean, im already being offered. Just waiting for the time. To be honest, im not ready to commit.

I miss Elly. Shes been my pillar of strength eversince Faiz was in camp. Thank you babe. Dont be so upset about your hair. Its nice! But sometimes i feel like cutting away your baby hair. Its like messy, i think you should rebond it. JOKE! It looks good to me, so stop complaining. I have like 101 things to tell you. Cant wait to see you Sunday. Lets go build our beautiful bodies.

Twinkle just gotten sterilised yesterday. I paid like 206 bucks on her, IDGAF. Just as long as shes less horny and papa can stop saying he wants to abandone her. Shes still in a process of healing, for atleast two weeks. The doctor said i have to be quiet and let her rest. Shes being a really good girl. I bought her wet food. Thats her suprise when shes healed. Hehe. I feel so good about myself.

Im working tonight and im not asleep yet. fcuk.

Baby, hurry come home and give me some love.

Frankly, I feel like im gnna explode soon. I think im having depression again. Goodnoon to you, Goodnight to myself.

2011-01-14T11:23:00.000+08:00

*faints*

2010-12-31T08:55:00.003+08:00

morning beautiful people. its only 8.55 now and im already awake. for some reason my body is aching like crazy and im still having my dry cough. well, im actually brain dead right now. but since i remembered boyf keep asking me to blog about him, so i think before im off to playing my Sim 3 :D im gnna blog about him first.

yesterday was my 1 year 7th monthsary. i have been waiting for so long for the day to come. to tell you the truth, i couldnt sleep the whole day just because i was extrememly excited, padahal at thurs morning i just finish work. nyeeeh. met him at about 3 and i gave him my red envelope, inside was a letter. eventho i think that it was enough, but i just hope he likes it. annnnnnnddddddd, he gave me a cd case, with our picture on the cover, a letter written inside, and a mysterious cd with my picture pasted on the top. it was fcuking sweet lor!! it melts my heart so muchh. and inside the mysterious cd was a movie file, pictures of us, music and a video all combined together. it was the sweetest little thing in the world! i cant thank you enough baby, i really cant. i appreciate your hard work. i'll repay ur kindness soon, you know what i mean right ;D

another thing, i wasnt accepted to the course i wanted. nyeeh.

and another thing, boyf nyer result hari nie. awesome, mintak kene sneak in.

okay bye.

2010-12-30T08:29:00.001+08:00

幸せな1年7ヶ月記念赤ちゃんが、私はあなたを愛しています！

2010-12-12T21:51:00.001+08:00

Saya sakit kentut kentut.

2010-10-28T13:12:00.002+08:00

urghhhh, im so bored. waiting for boyf to finish sch. i missed him. ahhh well, eventho i met him yesterday. but i still miss him, hell lots. anyway, 2 more days to my monthsary. 1 year 5 months, wa suka wa suka!~.

im having the most assholific flu today. fml please? it has been two days already and its still not getting any better. its annoying me.

im working today at 9. after 3 days of staying at home, im looking forward to working. elly is starting at 11. and she told me theres some things she wanted to tell me. so yeah, im looking forward to that too.

you know, sometimes i dont understand people. when they need you, they look for you. but when they dont need you, they wont bother looking for you. its frustrating, sigh.

okay bye! need to blow my nose.

2010-10-09T13:54:00.003+08:00

hari ini baby i balik! wa suka wa suka! hehehehe^^ ive been trying really hard to find the timing for last train and bus. god please let us atleast catch the train before or the last train. i cant afford to sit around and wait for someone to pick us up. its a burden and its too troublesome. well, its almost 2 now and wanie isnt awake yet. i dont want to end up rushing getting dress. because i have to look pretty for boyf :D hhehehehehehe. i wonder where is he now. i think their probably..gg for their last shopping. cause they book out at 7 sg time. and and sadly, my rash is still visible. so no choice, jeans. *shook head* i have to rethink about how to tie my hair and what bag am i suppose to bring. dayaa and the rest are off to swimming. i jealous derrr, mana nak ajak.

sheeesssss!! nak kluaaa laaaa, saper saper nak jumpe? boring ):

2010-10-08T15:22:00.003+08:00

my baby is coming back from chiang mai tmr. yay!! its been two weeks since i met him. rinddduuu): i miss his voice, i miss his laughter, i miss his touch. i miss everything. finally im able to gain my happiness back. i cant wait to fetch him airport! can i please hug you tightly, i dont care if you cant breathe ;D hehh. i miss my teddy! come back home soon and sleep with me teddy. i had too many sleepless night without you around. teeeheeeheeee. i cant wait to try on the clothes boyf bought for me ^^. but..sigh. i was planning to wear tees, shorts, flips and my hair all tied up. but then due to my sudden rash on my left leg. im too embarrassed to show my legs. so im gnna wear jeans instead. and that also means i have to replan what to wear. how devastating.

besides that, im meeting wanie bfore that. i miss her, i miss her hell lots. boyf allowed me to meet her cause i convince him that i really wna meet her. thanks to boyf a hell lot.

im currently waiting for my pay day. im not sure when issit gnna be. i think im left with 20 bucks in my bank. siggggghhhh!!!!

okaylaaa, bye. i wna do something.

2010-09-26T22:26:00.000+08:00

baby mane you?
kate kul 10 ))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

2010-09-22T22:45:00.002+08:00

first of all, i would like to point out that...BOYFRIEND IS LEAVING ME FOR TWO FCUKEN WEEKS! due to his attachment in thailand. manne? macam manee? sedeh kejap ah hidup aku. thenn, what am i suppose to do without him around, tch. i havent decided on what im gnna do, yet. so okay, bye!

if i told you, i know what you have been doing amcm?

P.S: baby jangan pergi please?

2010-09-10T22:24:00.001+08:00

his voice is so sexxxxxxxxaaaaaayyyyy!

2010-08-28T18:32:00.003+08:00

guess whos back? i am =DD. im no longger working. so i have tons of time at home. i have to admit that i miss blogging. eventho i dont think anyone visit and read my blog often, still i like to keep things updated. because i have this habit of blogging and after a few weeks i tend to read all of my post. i mean all eh. its just a way of reminding myself on the days that ive forgotten. okay! moving on~

im currently waiting for my pay day which is on the 6th of september. i cant wait, i cant wait! im not gonna put a number on it yet, as im currently unsure *pulls eyelids downwards*. sucks to be me. i wna shop with all my money boleh boleh boooooolleeeeeeehhhhhhh???? nyahhhh~. speaking of pay day, i miss the people who i was working with. really lor, i wna meet up with them soon.

now now, the boyfriend issue. throughtout my working days, which is for almost 3 week. unfortunately i had only ONE off day. one eh, not two, not three, ONE. mcm F kan? but some of the days he came down for a few hours to bring me some food or just for a smoke break. sweet kan? nyeeehh. besides all those things, thre were ups and downs. like him not getting enough attention from me, me sleeping at 12 everyday. alaaa, things like that. because most of the days im just too tired. but i tried to make time for him. webcam whenever im back from work, meet up aft work. and now, im free from working. i can spend as much time i want with him~. its just awesome la. since its been only a few days, the only thing i wna do. is get my beauty sleep. i havent had enough sleep, seriously. putting all those aside, my 15th monthsary and 18th birthday is just around the corner. yaaaaayyyyy!!!! i cant wait for it either. abeh kalau aku cakap, boyfs mom beli kan i ring, amcm? hahahaha, unexpected right? okay shush. diam. and boyf made me something. his hint was ; white in the inside, coloured in the outside, it has any shape and its hard. i obviously, have no clue to what it is. but i have a rough idea already. okay, i wna go do some other stuffs. ttyl, mwah!

2010-08-19T12:45:00.001+08:00

erni: good afternoon!
boyf: uhmmmmm....
erni: tak nak bangun?
boyf: tak nak.....

makkkk, matair aku cute pe? nyaahhh~

2010-08-07T08:21:00.003+08:00

to my little prince charming,

first of all, i would like to say that i would like to thank you again for meeting me yesterday. but really lor bby, u dont have to run all the way to ur home till mrt just so i wouldnt get angry anymore. i was angry because i was tired and hungry, u know me. i knw i dint say this yesterday. but it was the most sweetest thing a guy can ever do. who the hell wants to run more than 2 kilometers just to make sure his girlfriend wont wait any longer? the answer i got was you. you're that crazy person. and you should know its bad for u cause your having asthma right now. and yet, you still ran all the way. thank you baby, i appreciate it very very much. and well, its 8.27 now and im off to work soon. im starving like crazy. i hope you wont get lonely today. cause its a saturday and conferm conferm ader crowd. but please bby, DONT EVER hesitate to text me. i will reply as soon as i can, PROMISE. but you have to promise to msg me whenever you feel left out, promise? say promise!! please say promise out loud. i might not hear you, but i still want you to do it. and start sch soon baby! so u can come and meet me =DDDDD heheheh. i got nothing much to say now. my stomach is already grumbling. oh yeah, and i miss you baby ): i want to meet you soon, very soon ): veryy veryy veryy veryyy soon): i want longer hugs ): ): dah la bye, i nak klua. bye gemok! I LOVE YOU. mmmwah!

2010-07-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

hehhhhh =D

2010-07-24T16:14:00.003+08:00

me: hi gorgeous.
boyfriend: hey beautiful.

susah dapat siah nie.
betul tak betul?
(betul =p)

2010-07-20T22:33:00.003+08:00

sigh! im having those im having such bad luck days. i was being nag at 24/7. and the worst part is, i have this huge burn marks on my chest. all thanks to the cooking oil (Y). i was seeking attention from boyf, saying that it hurts and i cant bare the pain, blablabla. i almost cried lor when i was at home. i couldnt take the pressure. as soon as i met boyf, i cried a little. he was being so sweet to cheer me up by buying me my favourite sugar donut. his the sweetest little thing ive ever met. he treated me with such care. cause he knows im hving a bad day and my burn marks hurt. really lor, how i wish his like that everyday~ nyeeehhhh! i felt like i was a little girl, being taken care and pampered by my big brother. that was how the feeling was. it was amazing.

dahlaaaa, bye. nak makan obat batok~~

2010-07-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

im just gonna blog about whats necessary. i dont have any great ideas on what to post actually. well, firstly i sympathize boyf lor, seriously. his schling 6 days a week now. due to him missing one of his 1st year exams. so his retaking the subject every sunday. kesian kann!! only satu hari je die dapat sit around at home and relax. but okay laaa, he relax 4 days a week. cause ive cut down to meeting him only twice a week. i have been bugging him alot previously. so this time, its time to concentrate on his needs now. i even came up with the idea of studying with him for his end of year. eventho, i know NOTHING about electrical. resistant laaa, nano, nino, kino, fino.....okay i dont know, serious. i promised, so im keeping my promise.

cant wait for thursday! rinduu dayaaa bodog! and if can make it, im meeting mira at the same time. awesome~~~.

klaaaa bye, nak tido. orang cool mcm aku je tido siang ( one of edaya's lamest inside joke ). dah bye.

2010-07-15T19:04:00.002+08:00

i can already feel,

the whole world is crumbling down on me.

2010-07-13T03:26:00.002+08:00

can i just somehow say,
this picture turns me on a little bit?
nyeeehhh!

2010-07-06T08:18:00.002+08:00

i dont know is it him or is it me. but he seems very suspiciously weird lately. his having a badass toothache, that i truely understand. im accompanying him to poly in a few mins....or and hour. i dont know how to describe him laaa, nak cakap avoid..bukan. nak cakap drifting...pon bukan. its like...uhmm...making much more time for something else gitu. something about the way the text and he reacts. for example, last night before he sleep he asked me to wake up at 7. cause probably his daddy will be sending him at sembawang. then okay, i woke up, shower..blablabla. till about 5 mins ago i text him asking if his done. then he text me back saying that his still getting dress aft that he wants to eat and he said he wants to relax. i swear huge ????? was popping out from the top of my head. i was thinking if he wants to relax dont wake me up so early in the morning kan boleh. if his daddy never send him, he will reach here in the next 45 mins. sempat klua gie jogging, balik, mandi, tdo -.-. okay laa, i think its me. alaaa, sudah la. im hving my daily morning flu. malas, malas, maaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas.

2010-07-03T21:31:00.001+08:00

hi boredom, please go away.

2010-07-01T00:14:00.001+08:00

How To Keep Your Girlfriend Happy

One & Only. Your girlfriend should be your one & only. Make her feel special, k guys ? You’re lucky to have her even if she’s lucky to have you too. We know there are prettier out there but we like feeling as if we’re the only beautiful one in your eyes, & the only one you see.
“Ladies first.” No. That rule doesn’t apply to communication. Don’t wait for her call, text, IM, why don’t you try talking to her first for a change ? It’s thoughtful & sweet if a guy can actually do that.
Surprise her. You don’t have to drive an hour to her house at 3 a.m. to set off her name in fireworks in front of her window, but the little things are big things. A simple, good morning text, is more powerful than you think.
What insecurities ? For the love of god, all girls have insecurities. Please don’t point them out. For example, today I was looking at food & my boyfriend said “You eat a lot. You probably could beat me at a buffet.” WHAT. THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY. Also, let her be herself. If she’s having a bad hair day, don’t make fun of her if it’s hurtful. Let her wear sweatpants & still feel pretty damn cute around you, even when she’s not looking her best.
Act the same around your friends. You’re not a real man if you completely blow off your girl in front of your homeboys. When you’re going to hang out with her & your friends you better not run off & leave her standing there to greet them like WUDDUPPP GUYSSS.. NO, you better at least walk with her & introduce her to them if you haven’t already. If you walk with her hand in hand, she’ll love it.
When she’s mad. Dude, you better try & get her back. Chase her, whatever it is, don’t let her walk away when she’s mad at you. It shows you don’t care enough to go after her. Don’t let her go.
Maintain. If you did a bunch of cute things with her before, try & keep it up. You don’t have to go all out everyday for her, but don’t stop completely just because you got her already.
Honesty. If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost.
Trust. If your girl really doesn’t like one of your friends, trust, she has good reason to. Girls’ intuition -shrug- So don’t go hanging with your homegirl all the time if you know your girlfriend doesn’t like that bitch. She usually won’t hate for no reason. Respect her.
Love her. That’s all.

(via mmmelissa)

2010-06-29T11:57:00.000+08:00

sukerrrr!

2010-06-26T02:59:00.002+08:00

can i just say something? im extremely bored lor right now. im currently webcaming with boyf. thank goodness his here to entertain me. if not i would probably be asleep by now. my daily dose of romance have been a little suprising lately. because of my occasional murdering session, ive pushed boyfriend a little somehow. nyeeeehh! sorry hor bby, aft my 3rd day is over, imma pull you back. PROMISE~ k bye for now, boyf thinks im chatting with some random person. please eh, tkder mase =p

2010-06-24T02:47:00.003+08:00

i dont like how i feel right now, i know PMS is a legal murder. but i just dont like murdering people whos innocent. sigh! well, i think im going off to bed. goodnight people.

P.S: this blog might be dead for awhile.

2010-06-11T16:01:00.001+08:00

2010-06-08T10:58:00.002+08:00

oh right, lupa. soon we will be like this. boyf is shaving all his hair sooon. and my hair is still currently growing to its original length. tak saba for my hair but not for boyf. i tk suka dier botak, mintak kene jitak =p

2010-06-08T10:47:00.002+08:00

firstly i would like to say, TAK CUKUP TIDURRRR!! its true that im currently jobless. but still, i never gotten the amount of sleep i want. i dont know why =/. i just got back from a job interview at amk. and hell yeah i wish i could sleep right now, its dark and its about to rain. uhhhh~~ awesome. still, i cant. cause im going jogging with boyf later on if it doesnt rain. im just accompanying him cause he says his nafa, napfa, nahfa, whatever exercise thingy is coming soon. so well, obviously im his only victim -.- but okay, i need the exercise anyway ^^. i dont understand lor when ppl say im plump instead of fat, whats the difference? plump still got extra fats what -.- either which, im still fat =D saya suka sebab distak tak rasa tulang. nyeeeehh! perangai dayaa. kla bye, nak tdo.

2010-06-03T14:22:00.000+08:00

*thumbs up*

2010-06-02T21:48:00.002+08:00

nie belen2.
kamu dipersilakan untuk ketawa kan muka muka saya.
kau try la 3 hari tidur 3 jam je =D

2010-06-02T12:35:00.002+08:00

ohh right. i forgot something important.
HAPPY BELATED ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO ME.
ngantuk ngantuk lepas chalet pegi tenguk Prince of Persia
=DDDD
sudah k bye.

2010-06-02T11:29:00.004+08:00

1st day, keje kite makan je!

bowling kul 1 pagi. pastu bobal merepek sampai kul 7 pagi.
lu kekek uh, lu kekek!

2nd day fun and games.

penat bruders penat!

2010-05-31T21:58:00.000+08:00

lawaaa per siah nie!
rindu korang bodoG!

2010-05-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

i will be away for a three day two night chalet ^^
dont miss me while im away.

2010-05-26T23:31:00.001+08:00

im gnna spend all the time i have now,
to read other people post secrets.
hoping that maybe someone share the same secret like i do.

2010-05-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

HATRED!

2010-05-16T04:40:00.000+08:00

im searching for someone.
but i dont know whre to start.

2010-05-13T00:52:00.000+08:00

and ive found that someone, at last (:

2010-05-12T15:29:00.002+08:00

phew~ ive been watching bad girls club on youtube for hrs now. i miss watching it on telly. but i think they dont have the show already. i only watched season 1. i missed the other seasons. it has so much action in them. its not that i like watching girls getting beat up. but this show is about changing those girls into better person. they dont allow anyone to fist fight in the house, or else they have to go home. something like..i dont know how to explain. but u should watch it yourself. its really good. actually mcm tkder motive la post pasal nie. but i really really want you guys to watch.

2010-05-12T12:58:00.000+08:00

somehow i find ^ this picture adorable =p

2010-05-11T14:43:00.002+08:00

BOYF BIRTHDAY ^^

2010-05-10T19:54:00.001+08:00

i suker nie =D

2010-05-09T00:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOYFRIEND!
YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYYYYY~
CANT WAIT TO MEET YOU BABY!
I'LL GIVE U THE BIGGEST, HARDEST, WETTEST KISSS YOU EVER RECEIVE!
NYEEEEEHHH~!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOOOOOOOOVVVVVEEEEEEEEE YOU!

2010-05-06T16:38:00.001+08:00

'GOT ANYTHING ELSE TO SAY?'

ive always hated that sentence.
actually i had something to say, but i made myself forget.

2010-05-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

heheheh, nie yang i ckp Brazilian =D

2010-05-04T15:43:00.002+08:00

erni: u, i think u came from outer space.
boyf: *starts wobbling his arms like they were long and boneless* *starts making alien noises*
erni: *laughs* i mean like ur different from all the guys i know.
boyf: *smiles* i get that alot actually.
erni: *eyes widen*

yeah la, u got that alot. still, they same the same thing to you like 'ur one in a million'. but i dint say the same way like they did. tonggong! sometimes, im embarrass of the things i say, really! and im gnna have to admit, i dont ever wna try small or large. i want the medium. but how can u say im medium tapi up siket, makkkk sodeh! can i like strangle you? now, please?

2010-05-03T21:43:00.002+08:00

heyhey peoples. i just came back from my lunch date. boyf is ohw home now. it was pretty amazing how things turned out to be. and how suprising that his lappy last until 1 and a half watched movies. usually his battery would die on us on 1 movie. no, actually bfore a few more minutes to the ending. thats why i always missed out on the last part of every movie -.- it sucks really. imagine being so confident about the whole movie then ended up remembering you dint finish watching. besides that, i think me and boyf found a way of enjoying ourself, we actually like cooking together anddddd debating. yes, you heard me. one of us always come up with something to talk about, then try to find out the truth from our perspective. of cause, it doesnt really make any sense sometimes. just now we were talking about how are girls suppose to know if...okay nvm. i think i'll stop elaborating about that one. cause its personal for all the girls out thre. boyf made a pretty good impression about explaining to me on how it actually happen. the next one was about when guys go to ns, they will tend to break up with their girlf. due to the girl having less communication with her boyf and tends to find a particular guy who understands her in the outside world. meaning the guy whom she can call up or talk to or meet up all the time. but well, i can see thru his eyes that he was afraid that it might happen to us. i know myself really well, and i know for sure that it wont happen to me. i'll make sure he bring lots of extra battery la, easy as that! in addiction, have my own new limitations not to disturb him to much. except for when his free of cause. tch, i dont really have to think about that right now cause its a long way to go. if the day arrive, i just want to prove to him that its possible not to slip away. not forgetting i still have alot on my mind now, ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT. im too tired to do my card today as the weather is alitte humid and i cant afford to mess up my room, atleast not now. ive made up my mind to start doing either on weds or on thurs. abes cepat dah tak payah fikir2 lagi. klaaa bye, i think i wna do something.

2010-05-03T13:47:00.002+08:00

i love listening to music whenever it rains, it make all my worries go away.
well then, i dont have to worry about boyf birthday.
ive planned out the things very nicely.
eventho it will be held around my house, it will be special.
i hope things turn out okay.

im meeting boyf in awhile for a lunch date.
and give him his cigarettes that he left at my house.

my 1 year anniversary is in 27 days.
and guess what, im gnna redo the xxxxxxx.
cause i think its pretty ugly tho.
i found another technique.
and again, i hope it turns nice.
not forgetting this is the third time im redoing the xxxxxx.
yeah, its that difficult to do.
i wanted it to turn out really beautiful.
cause i dont think any girl ever gave this to her boyf.
maybe thre is, but the one that is already made.
but im doing this with full of love and hard work.
pray for me that on the 9th and 30th will turn out awesome.

besides that, my vision is becoming worst as days past.
i think its because of too much psp.
-.-

k bye, nak continue main game =p

2010-05-02T22:51:00.001+08:00

SO MUCH THINGS TO DO IN SO LITTLE TIME!
GOD, HELP ME!

2010-05-01T15:09:00.000+08:00

tsk, im hving a quick emotional breakdown.

2010-04-30T21:58:00.002+08:00

i had such a wonderful wonderful wonderful 11th Monthsary tday!
9 more days to boyf birthday, wooohoo!
watch out eh b, i would seriously throw the cake at your face and walk away if ur gg to G.
nyeeeeheeehh!

P.S: MAKKK DAYAAA! DIET TROS! TK NAK MAKAN NGN KAU LAGI SIULZXZXZ!

2010-04-23T16:24:00.002+08:00

okay i have to admit. im really starting to get used to staying at home. you see, i can spend as much time as i want with boyfriend, without worrying about the time and all. but i really need to get my big fat ass off from home. if i do get a job, its gnna be hard for both me and him. i knw cause he told me the other time saying that he was afraid i dont have time for him. well, i dont mind dragging myself just so i could meet him aft work...................okay im blank. k bye!

2010-04-20T03:46:00.002+08:00

boyfriend keep saying this to me
-you are the one who said to start afresh months ago, so ive let go off my past and start afresh.

so i made up my mind to keep my own words, i took 30 mins to clear my mind. and now, ive let go of my past. to all the people who caused me heartbreaks, you are now considered a STRANGER. i will treat you like we never met, never had any chemistry, history ahhh whatever shit it is. if u wna be upset, thats up to you, cause remember the things u did to me last time was much worst. okay bye, over done, finito.

2010-04-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

sigh, i hate this.

2010-04-15T02:09:00.001+08:00

baby i still cant seem to forgive myself for what happen last night.
i PROMISE i will make it up to you on saturday.
i love you.

2010-04-14T03:24:00.001+08:00

OMG AKU STRESS!!

THATS IMPOSSIBLE

CEPAT CEPAT PAGI!!

NEED TO ASK BADLY!!

2010-04-11T14:53:00.002+08:00

uhh, my body is aching. especially my thigh. grrr! yesterday i when cycling with parents and boyf early in the morning at ec. we took the two rider bike. it was awesome la and of cause tiring. me and boyf hvent been cycling for mths nw. nyeehehhh. aft that we had lunch and headed home. met sister and off to bugis for some enquiries about the internet thingy. got home and went home. had a very heart to heart talk with boyf. we revealed things that both of us never knew about. it was shocking, but i was happy to hear what he was actually trying to say, it made me feel very special about myself. the story was different than any other ppl whom ive dated. the word that was got to do with SACRIFICE. noone had actually used that word on me bfore. i couldnt stress it enough that im truely blessed.

2010-04-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

boring kaperzxzxzxzx!
nak tido nak tido!
k bye.

2010-04-03T05:01:00.002+08:00

kuchi kuchiiiii....

kuchi kuchiiiii...

...................

kocii kocii..??

kuaci kuaciii??

ehh, whats the word?

nyeheeehhh.

rindu boyfriend!

you tonggong.

2010-04-01T03:59:00.001+08:00

2010-03-29T17:22:00.001+08:00

hahaha, cute much?
tomorrow will be my 10th Monthsary.
Cant Wait Cant Wait!
cause waiting for a month, feels like a year.
Trust Me.

2010-03-28T04:58:00.000+08:00

2010-03-22T15:15:00.002+08:00

hi people. its been a while since i really blog properly. since i have nothing to do right now. i thought i might want to do that today. well, i met boyf yesterday. cause he told me was hungry. i told daddy and he forced boyf to come by and have his lunch. so he did. he really made my day. it was a day of endless laughter. he was showing me this particular magic trick about putri and putra. i already knew how the trick was, so i was making fun of his trick. and we laughed so hard. when his happy, im happy. aft that we watched santau. my girlies said it was scary and it has alot of scenes that will make your heart skip a beat. but it wasnt scary at all. but boyf is a little kental when it comes to horror movies. nyeeeheeehhh! orang takder pape dier yang terkejut. so cute laa you bby. when the movie started to get bored, i made fun of the grannie. the grannie pakai make up laa, and the lipstick was so obvious. right aft that show we watched entiti indonesia, it wasnt that scary. but the part where thres this thing who walk like a freaking zombie. it freaked me out alot! *shivers* i hate that. at around 1030 i send him off to the bus stop and i went home.

when i got home, i wash up and lay down. suddenly daddy knocked on my dooor. asking me how come boyf called my home phone. right thre and then i was curious about who it was. when i answered it was J. both my girls and boyf know who J is. i told him i was sleeping but actually i wasnt. i was expecting him to tell me to go back to sleep. but nooooooooooooooo, he wanted to talk instead. he said a bunch of shits that tick me off. something like if i were single would i go back with him and the told me that no girl can make him feel loved like i do, blablabla. sickening. i told him off indirectly but he dint get it at all. he told me to understand him. fcuk that laaa, if i have to understand you, who would understand me? he dint even think about how i felt. i rushed the conversation so that it would end a little faster. when it did. i immediately called boyf. i told him about whatever J said and i cried. yes i cried. J made me feel so angry and slutty. boyf comfort me and said boys will be boys. i know it means.

im the new erni now, ive change my ways. the old me is gone. those who know me inside out, will realise what the changes was. i already know who the people are. well, like i said people change *smile*

2010-03-18T18:50:00.001+08:00

i feel so weak right now.
i hate this.

2010-03-14T19:14:00.001+08:00

MATAIR I DAH BALIK!
RINDDUUU RINDUUUUU!
sorry for flooding ur inbox while ur away.
you know i cant resist the temptation.

2010-03-11T23:46:00.002+08:00

baby, can you not go to batam?
i sooo not independent.
i need your msgs and the sound of your voice.
tsk!
jage diri baik2 tau, nanti kene culik susah.
nanti tkder orang nak jage i mcm mane!
*insert sad face*
i love you!

2010-03-11T01:13:00.001+08:00

i dont want to become like you
im sooo terrified right now
i could cry
im dead serious

2010-03-10T05:02:00.001+08:00

ive never heard this song before.
but this melts my heart so much.
and im falling in love with the song already.

2010-03-05T01:41:00.001+08:00

like finally this movie is posted on a web.
im gnna watch this now.
tata peoples~!
looking forward to meeting boyf latur this aftnoon.
yay!

2010-03-03T22:20:00.001+08:00

ohmygosh, i miss sch so much!

boyf, this was what i refering to you just now.

2010-03-03T03:00:00.002+08:00

this locket is on my wishlist.
i want this sooo badly.
so that i can put a picture inside and wear it where ever i go.

2010-03-01T15:26:00.001+08:00

i had such a heart warming 9th monthsary yesterday.

thank you boyf, for making it happen.

ILOVEYOU

2010-02-26T18:44:00.001+08:00

when something weird occurs.

millions of things rush through my mind...

for days and weeks.

2010-02-17T18:49:00.002+08:00

words couldnt describe how amazing my Valentines was.

2010-02-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

mcm good good je.

2010-02-13T03:38:00.002+08:00

~!~Step One~!~

Are you taken??
- Yes i am =D

If so, by who??
- Muhammad Faiz Bin M.

How tall is he??
-errrr, 168-17? i dont knw, but his tall.

How much does he weigh??
- haha, not telling you.

Hair Color??
- natural darkish brown.

Eye Color??
-black.

What is his best physical feature??
- killer smile *slurps*

~!~Step Two~!~

How long have you two been going out??
- well, we known each other for 5 years now. but we've been gg out for almost 9 mths.

What is the best moment you guys have had together??
- wow, thres so much to choose from actually. i dont even knw whre to start.

The worst??
- hvent happened, yet.

If you could change anything on him, what would it be??
- oh no sweetie, i wont change anything about him. i love him for who he is.

Do you love him??
- if i dont love him, why would i bother staying right.

Do you judge by his looks or his personality??
- personality, i need a man who has a huge sense of humor. and he has it.

If he went completely broke, would you care??
- of cause i would.

If he died tomorrow what would you do??
- things that i can never imagine doing.

How far have you gone with him??
- far? which...ohhhh! that far. how about here till the other end of the world? *wink*

Do you plan on marrying each other??
- well, YES!

~!~Step Three~!~

Who is you last ex??
- huh? i dont own any.

Why did you guys break up??
- dont own.

Was he better then your recent boyfriend??
- dont own.

How long were you guys going out??
- dont own.

Who is better looking??
- dont own.

If he asked you back out what would you do??
- dont own.

Does your recent boyfriend like him??
-dont own.

Do you guys even talk??
- dont own.

Are you friends??
- dont own.

Do you still have TINY feelings for him??
- dont own.

Did you love him??
- still dont own.

~!~Step Four~!~ Back to your recent boyfriend

Do you trust him??
- yes of cause, a whole lot.

If you do, how do you know??
- because i just do, gawsh.

If you don't, why??
- stupid insecurities, what else.

Where did you two meet??
- secondary school.

How long ago was this??
- 4 years.

Do your parents like him??
- yesssssa.

Does his parents like you??
- i think so.

Can he drive??
- not yet.

I don't think I asked this but how old is he?? (if I did sorry)
- his turning legal 18, wooohoooss!

got this from my beloved cousin, yany.

2010-02-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

i am so stressed out right now, sigh.
im just afraid something bad might happen to..
ME & YOU.

2010-02-11T02:19:00.004+08:00

i might be a slow thinker,
but i am certainly not stupid.
i just found out something, something that i nvr realise.
its something to laugh about today.
its just so adorable.

some advise for people who is a slow thinker,
PAY ATTENTION ON THE SMALLEST THINGS.
you will find out things u never knew.
Trust Me.

2010-02-10T21:19:00.001+08:00

tak perlu.

2010-02-10T14:58:00.004+08:00

I JUST REALIZE SOMETHING.

I DON'T HAVE A DATE...

ON VALENTINES DAY.

2010-02-10T14:43:00.002+08:00

look at the time. i just woke up from my beauty sleep. im just hoping i get to go back to sch. i cant do this anymore. i wna work, but then i dont want to. im off to bathing soon, have to go out to buy some groceries for mom. and i dont wna go alone ): i miss having dayaaa around to accompany me to get my groceries, tsk.

i met boyf yesterday. it was really really really reaaaaaaaaly fun. whenever i meet him, he always make me feel like a baby. yes a baby. u knw when u do things to make a baby laugh, like blowing onto their stomachs. yaa know, things like that. and i was laughing like crazy. it was so adorable. i miss him already. he havent been replying my msgs quickly like last time. but i understand, his studying. he usually replies in 30 mins or so. i guess i would just have to wait.

i am sooo missing my OD babies and spastiks. its been a while since spastiks spend some quality time together. we need catching up real sooon.

i think im off to bathing now, tata.

2010-02-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

emangnya gue pikirin?
*roll eyes*

2010-02-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

for those who know us since secondary sch.
look at how much we grew up.
finally we graduated.

to EDAYA and MYSELF : WHRES YOUR MANNERS?! (inside joke) haha.

Missing you guys already.
looking forward for a house visit session to dayaas hse.

tata peoples.

2010-02-07T23:45:00.001+08:00

im soooo tired.
anyone care to join me to sleep?
~yawnnnnn.

special thanks to boyf for meeting me tday.

2010-02-05T01:26:00.002+08:00

im sooooooo tired!
im still busy downloading some stuff for my new cpu.
the loading is sooooo slowwwwww.
met boyf tday.
1 word ; AWESOMENESSS.

2010-02-04T02:34:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since he kissed me on my forehead.
and when he did earlier tday, i melt.

2010-02-04T02:22:00.002+08:00

im still hoping that i will get posted to higher nitec. as you all know, i still want to continue studying. im not ready for work yet. besides, i pity boyf for gg to sch and gg hm alone. last year we were so used to gg to sch and gg hm together almost every single day. and when i graduated, he was left all alone. hmmm, pity.

im suppose to be sleeping right now, but since i just changed my monitor. im a little engross about exploring it. exploring those buttons on the side of the screen. im still having difficulties on which button is which. stress~

boyf is acting a little cold towards me lately, due to his sudden rash. but its alright, i understand his situation. i just...miss being around him. thats all.

2010-02-03T21:32:00.002+08:00

8th Monthsary with boyf was a blast!
u guys should catch the show My Ex.
Its a horror movie.
Moral of the story, promises arent meant to be broken.

2010-02-01T14:50:00.000+08:00

MISSED.

2010-02-01T02:38:00.001+08:00

Faiz Baby, I Miss You.

Much Love, Erni.

2010-01-30T14:55:00.000+08:00

sigh, im sorry bby.

2010-01-30T13:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 8TH MONTHSARY BBY!
I LOVE YOUUU.
im off to bathing.
Meeting boyf to watch a horror movie.
tata peoples.

2010-01-27T00:46:00.001+08:00

you said you dint want to see me hurt
but did you close ur eyes while i was crying?

2010-01-25T10:37:00.002+08:00

i still cant believe im up so early tday. i accompanied boyf to sch tday by text. he was in such a good mood. he text me all kinds of sweet stuff that it made me smile so much and i couldnt fall back to sleep. he made my monday morning so wonderful. speaking of wonderful, i spent my friday and saturday night with boyf. such a bliss. im looking forward to meeting him again this wednesday. we need to catch up more. since we only meet once or twice a week due to him schling. i can never get enough of meeting him and i mean never! can i tie you up and keep you inside my closet? so i can see u everyday? can i can i? pleaseeeeeeeeee! pretty pretty please, with a cherry on top?

2010-01-21T11:56:00.001+08:00

im lovesick.
i cant wait to meet u tmr bby!
sexcited =DD

2010-01-15T18:20:00.001+08:00

melts.

2010-01-15T16:46:00.003+08:00

heheh^^ so cute.

you have no idea hw much fun i had yesterday. eventho boyf and me was a little quiet, just a little, inside the train. but we were okay when we were alone. aft 1 week 3 days of not being able to see him. when i first set my eyes on him, i forgot to breathe. he loooked better than in webcam! hahahaha. it was the most wonderful feeling. it felt like it was the first time we were both fell in love. ahhhh~ makes me go crazy. as usual we did a little bit of everything together, like eating paddle pop, bebe, big bang, mcspicy, etc etc. we had everything we crave for. bby gave me a whistle, he said whistle it and i will come running to you. isnt he just the sweetest! thank you bby. it was really sweet and thoughtful of you.

i love you boyf atleast more than u do =p

2010-01-14T08:18:00.002+08:00

goodmorning peoples. im gg out in awhile to meet boyf in sch. aft 1 week 3 days of waiting. finally i get to meet him! yaynessssss. i know its too early to meet him. actually he ends at 12, but due to his test. his ending sch early. so we decided to take advantage of the time to catch up. im sexcited. but im afraid of the long queue of buses in 168 and 31. sure pack one la i tell you. i just need a seat, thats all. well, i got to go. im gg out already in a few mins and im not ready yet. tata loves.