KITTY LOVE.

Shush Boy, Shut Your Lips.

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urgh, stupid morning flu. i hate it, i hate it. ive got absolutely nothing to do. im waiting for boyf to wake up tho, i wna know if his gg out tday. besides, last night i broke my psp analog! thats the reason for me sleeping early. speaking of the devil, boyf is awake already. hmmm its not even noon yet. he usually wakes up at 1 or 2. okay, i know why. back to the psp. i told brother this morning, he dint reply my text. conferm dier marah. i was so ganas last night with the analog, i admit kay. cause the game always make me kancong laa. lets wait for him to text back.

tmr im out to cousins hse at tp and idk whre. baikkkkkk! yanyy, really sey. i want to meet you sooo badly. i wantt to amek gambaaaaa! then then, nk catch up. i dont want to be alone at cik sarip hse u tau tak, dah laa rumah dier bsar. tk kn i nk gie ddk makan kueh minom air sorang2. conferm mama ngn daddy bobal ngn dorang2. i need you very badly. desperate kann? ha-ha. i just hope your coming alright.

i miss my obsession for bebe partner, MIRA. i want to meet you very soon can? and hell yeah, im craving for bebe very badly. i even forgot hw it taste like, but one thing for sure, its darn goood. dont mia for too long okay, erni misses you too much.

gtg now, update soon.

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reality cinta rock and roll, watch it on youtube.
its an amazinggggg flick, i swear.

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i miss boyf laaa. its been erm, 4 days since ive last met him. if not tday im able to meet him, but nooooooooo his gg off to jb. sedeh kann. i rindu you nyer ketawe and that killer smile *melts* k ass, diam. oh oh! SMAYOO SMAYOO!

anyway, yesterday was a blast! i would like to thank amaliah sooo much for...you know what. please let me repay you. its the least i can do. and and, dont have to salam me anymore kay? i feel really awkward. besides, like what u say, kite sedare what. lain laa the girl who salam youuu, the nk tgk eyecandy girlie, susah dapat tuhh. ha-ha. also thanks to parents for rushing home just so i could catch the last train. i felt like a walking zombie once i step into the train. i sat and i mellow into my seat. i was stonning and of cause, sleepy. before that at one of my cousin place, i was staring at the mirror, i started talking to myself inside my head, saying that im in desperate need of a scotch tape, to tape my eyelids. geez. back to inside the train. i dint care how awful i look. with my eyeliner not washed properly makes me look like i have panda eyes. got off the train. walked all the way, i seriously could pull myself to walk, i was dragging my feel, my shoulders slumped down. i quickly rush home, have a quick bite and crashhhh! i slept like a baby. ahh, bliss~

i hvent plan on what to do today. i think im off to sleeping again soon. or help mommy cook. tgk laa, lauk banyak mseh nk masak, aper nie.

ohh yesss! bfore i forget. i text boyf asking for forgiveness, the whole text:

me: Selamat hari raya, i harap you maafkan i kalau i slalu buat you marah or hurt you(:

boyf: haha, u dimaafkan. then i nya u tak maafkan sey.

me: aww. then you ckp balek laa. in your own words aye please, dont copy paste.

boyf: cheebai~ haha. bby, maafkan i k, kalau i hurt your feelings in any way, even the ones that come out frm my mouth. sorry tau bby. sayang youu. tolong maaf kan i.

me: haha. awwww! tk ckp melayu nmpk. heheh, of cause i forgive you bby. i love youu alot! lets start afresh kay, as in whatever fights, stupid exes, jealousy, everything. lets forget all that kay (:

boyf:alright sayang, yayy!

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selamat hari raya to all my muslim friends =D

im gg out in awhile. gg off to moms place for raye. boyf is out to smayoo raye. smayoo smayoo, taplek dahi nak? ha-ha. last night i said smayang not smayoo okay? you trip. anyway, rajen laa you kan. kan bgos gie smayoo dari u lepak pt sembawang tad. im sleepy and exhausted. besides, my tummy have been grumbling since just now. not in a hungry kind of way... anyway, im looking forward to meeting yany sooon! baikkkkkkkkkkkk! gtg people, tata.

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eee! geram nyer aku ngn bende websms nie. i dint have anymore prepaid, so terpakse laa. im off to cooking jap lagi. i miss boyf, pity him have to rebus all the ketupat he made. i miss hearing his msg tone and ringtone ; baby your my everything, your all i ever wanted. hahh, ass.

kbye, nk gie dapur. update soon.

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MUHAMMAD FAIZ BIN M!

I RINDU YOUUUUUUUUU!

TEXT ME! TEXT ME!

BILEK I DAH SUPERB TAU! COME SOOON(:

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boleh ke if someone is watching tv while texting you and he puts his full attention on the tv? okay boleh. i wanted him to online or atleast entertain me texting. but nvm laa, its okay. im not really that selfish and i definately dont pker diri sendiri.

anyway, thank goodness beo exam was easyyyyy. baikkkkkkkk!

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aduhh, i cant study for my beo exam. seems like nothing is actually adapting. i have to admit, its harddddddddddd.

i gain a kilo, fcuk it. its not gg back down, i dont like it! i dont like looking at the weighing scale but i cant resist.

boyf is cute when his jealous: asal dier tgk2 u? nk fight pe. hahhh, ass you.

im lighter than boyf! yessaaaaaaaaaa. and again, our bet is still on remember?

i have a list of things i have to do bfore the year ends.

get myself a job.
sentosa on my monthsary.
french manicure with boyfff (i forced him)
mccafe darn good brownie and frappe mocha *slurps*
pool.
foosball.
grandlink.

alaa, macam2 laa actually.

nk blaja nie, k bye!

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to strangers whos bloghopping.

PLEASE TAGG ME WILL YOUU.

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so much for dont appreciate. so yeah, means u do appreciate ppl issit?
yeahhh righhttttttt!
belah la wei *inside joke*

i feel like texting. but the problem is who. boyf is busy playing game. edaya is doing, idk what. dayaa ppaid low. elly msg conferm tk nk reply, wanie conferm tk reply, tgh ader prepaid tk msg, nnti ppaid low baru msg, aper la you nie. yang lain2 jangan laa harap. dont wish to text at all.

i keep thinking about the past. how easily i fall for sweet talks and flirtatious traps. besides, i was really soft hearted back then. tak nak jual mahal. but thanks to the experiences, ive learned from my mistake. aye boyf, why dint u come sooner? asal during secondary sch tk blang? ass you. if you come sooner, we both can live happily ever aft. and not go thru the annoying reality of immature relationship, the continuous heartbreaks, sleepless nights, crying for the smallest matter. we both have stood thru each other ever since that day yang kite asek nak webcam, asek nk lepak bler boring. and we both know how a real heartache feels. well, it feels good to be thre for you at that time. it feels good to take a walk with you in the afternoons. everything felt good, i mean EVERYTHING *wink* ohhhhhhhh! 21 knickers lagi lepas raye, MAO PAHHH?! *laughs*

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if im not wrong, the guy on the right died due to motorcycle accident.
even tho he might not remember me, but we hang around for quite awhile back then.
rip friend(:

what a day. when to sch for nothing, cause i dint knw thre wasnt class. but atleast i got to accompany boyf to sch.

i am never gnna sleep till maghrib(tk tau la camner nk spell) anymore. keep having annoying nightmares. especially the one tday. tsk tsk, how sad.

boyf, boyf. do you know how much im falling head over heels for you? do you, do you?

and edaya, YEAH SNOBBISH. sooner or latur kays? takes time.

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the littlest things can cause a huge fight. but im glad we're okay now. i would like to thank boyf for meeting me yesterday. it was funn(: im truly sorry for the things ive said and done. i still feel guitly. eventho i know you already forgive me. but i still have the feeling. yes i admit, im always the cause of this fights. you wna know why? cause i dont think bfore i say anything. i say what i want to say. right or wrong. this isnt the only trouble ive cause, ive got into many more misunderstanding just bcause of what i have to say. i dont mean the things i say, i mean it in a good way. but the way i put it, its always harsh. then ppl would think that im dissing them. actually i just dint know how to put certain words in a nice way. of cause my spastiks knows me very well. when i tend to say things that isnt nice to hear. they know i mean it in a good way. so they know that im not actually not trying to diss anyone. u know that too right boyf? i may say the nicest things and the meanist things. im still nice in the inside. and edaya, i know what you mean by im the meanest. i get it now. ive been observing myself lately. i say the things i wna say then aft that i took a minute to recall what i said. and yeah, its mean. but i appreciate you guys for tolerating me soo muchhh. you knw i dont mean what i say. soo yeahh, end of story.

P.S: i can handle it, one thing for sure. the way you say it makes me feel cheap(:

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wahh, like seriously. i need entertainment. besides that, i suddenly need the presence of boyf. but i think his playing game or doing whatever. noone entertained me since morning. brother is out, daddy is watching telly. i malas nk main game. i malas nk cuci baju. i malas nk cuci kasut. i malasssss! i feel like hogging right now. but who am i suppose to talk to? besides, i just remembered its a saturdayyyyyyyyyyy! and im at home doing nothing, whats thiss mannn. fcuk it. someone ask me out): please, please, please. nk tanyer boyf if he wants to meet me at yishun, tap conferm dier malas. *sigh loudly* dayaa, nak ikot gie geylang! edaya nak ikot..gie..tak tau mane! elly nk ikot! mira nk ikot! abang nak ikot! whats with the sudden question boyf asking me if im fasting. hahhh, cute nyer. nnti beli beras 10kg jommmmm! thres so much stuff he said that cracks me up. esp the sedut incident. hahhaha, what the eff laa. boyf is having gastric, kesian kan, kesian kan. aye dah laa, kbye.

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i think ive made up my mind, even tho hw short my hair is right now, WITHOUT any layered parts. im gg for a haircut again latur. im waiting for dayaa to come back from geylang tho. fickle minded nie.

im craving for a lollipop. nak strawberry nyer. but im darn lazy to go out just for the sake of satisfying my craves.

speaking of gg out. mom woke up me up at 11 so that i could meet her at town and bring her uniform. so much for that aye.

i miss my spastik babies, hmppppfffff. smuenyer ilang.

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I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows (the way)
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

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okayokay, i knw. im suppose to be omw to sch now. but boyf and mira just woke up. baikkk! boyf took only 20 mins to siap. i dont knw hw many times i gave him a wake up call. okay byeeeee, nk klua! boyf naik krete. dang itttttttt.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER, KAK MIRA.
i rindu you laaa.

special thanks to this two who wish me a belated birthday:

Naz
Suwandi

appreciate for remembering.

sch was absolutely a drag, trust me. takder arah tujuan. msok class, tdo, tdo je msok class *inside joke* hahh, im not attending sch tmr. cause boyf and girlies, dont have class. borredom.

i hate petty fights, dont you? when actually its a small issue, we tend to make it into a big one. okay so, my fault. sorry sorry sorry. anyway, its over and out long time ago. u wont be seeing me doing or saying foolish things anymore. woots~ try me if you dont believe me.

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i was searching for the cover of the song gone, but neither of them makes the hair on my neck stand. thre was one of the cover, but the background music is being played by a piano. i wanted a guitar instead cause it sounds much more beautiful. sadly, none to be found.

im hving poa ca1 tmr and i couldnt study for it, yet. cause my book is over at dayaa's place. im gnna have to take it. maybe im not sleeping tonight. i already need to buck up, cause i keep getting F for my test. sucks. just hope i wont fall asleep.

ahhhhhhhhhh! cute per bende msn nyer gamba yang gerak2 tuh!

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like finally ive clean up my room. it doesnt look like a huge pile of dumpster already, maybe a little. ha-ha. im gonna fully decorate my room very soon. i wna paint my walls hot pink can? since i told brother i wanted red but he dint let me. he wanted to paint his room blue. bagus la tuh, mcm baby2. blue is for boys and pink for girls. im not sure if daddy would let us do it tho. hmmmpf.

i slept at almost 5 in the morning yesterday. aft i sent boyf the usual goodnight msg, i felt a little sleepy. but sadly, i couldnt sleep at all. i played game throughout the night. i wanted to play silent hill, brother dint let me cause he said its scary to play in the middle of the night futhermore, im the only person who was awake, so i played a different game instead.

boyf isnt awake yet, im not sure if his coming over or not. i'll call him at 3 to reconfirm. for now, i'll let him sleep. i actually dint want to burden him. cause i told him that i needed someone to accompany me as im home alone tday, AGAIN. parents working, brother gg out with gf. if im home alone, the only thing i usually do is eat, i dont that to happen. oh yeah, i just remembered, im not fasting.

haha yeah mira, so much for good deed aye. edaya said good deeds make our karma go away. really uh? *thinks*

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bestest birthday at army camp with gfs and... ABANG BODY.
*giggles*

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and special thanks to :

Ziela
Suhai
Ying Ying

for the belated birthday wish, i love you guys too.

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desperately bored to tears laa. kimek geram *inside joke*

dearest edaya, i read your blog earlier tday. and i was dissapointed on what u said. i really dint mean to make you feel at your lowest or make you cry. and im sorry. ive been collecting all your 'boyfriend, contact people sermons'. it seems to come to all the same particular reason why your not contacting anymore. im sick and tired of it. when you finally think you got the one u wanted, they treat you like trash. yeah i knw u said it was your fault, but he dint have to do a reverse psychology. i mean, you apologised already aft all. you realise your mistakes. really, whats with the reverse psychology. tak perlu what. and yeah, he apologies to you that night. abeh tros tk reply msg when u asked about nk jumpe. i saw how u reacted to everything d, it was my birthday and i hated seeing you that way. i wanted you to enjoy yourself thre. but you dint. i may be the meanest, but the way i care for you is really deep. we've been thru all kinds of shits, u knw that. you come in a great package d. dont let it all go to waste. i want the best for you. enough said okay? and i love you, thats why i care.

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adan dedicated this to me(:

cute kan pm dier.

special thanks starting from the 1st person who wished me:

Dadi.
Adan.
Afeeqie.
Edaya.
Haikal.
Dayaa.
Mummy.
Boyf ( expected u to wish me first, pantat )
Nasha.
Om Aziz.
Din.
Zamir.
Kak Jun.
Roy.
Azza.
Wanie.
Aisha.
Mira.
Shazmeen.
Mastura.
Farah.
Class OD (sweet laa korang)
Mus.
Afif.
Ein.
Zul.
Pkia.
Fizan.
Sadik.
Elly (kau bsar nyer pantat)
Amin.
Nurul
Abang.
Mom.
Dad.
Atiqah.
Juriya.
Kak Mira.
Yuyut.
Sudriyana.
Sitt.
Sufi.

Tagged People:

Sarah.
Hafizal.
Boi Adidos.
Norabontot.
Aslam.
Monirul.
Rahilah.
Ahmad.
Yasmin.
Linsih.

MUCH APPRECIATED.
I LOVE YOU GUYS, REMEMBER THAT.

edaya gave me the most girly girl present.
dont mind the quality please, cell rosak.
this present was really unexpected.
to be frank, my heart was racing cause she forced me to open it.
and i took out the first box aft that the second.
thre were for boxes inside.
once i saw the green dress dollie, i immediatly knew what it is.
it represents SPASTIK.
yessaaaa, how adorable this present is sey.
thank you so much.

boyf gave me this.
i remembered telling him months back that i adore this bear.
finnally i got one on my own.
it doesnt actually have a ribbon but due to his creativity, he put a ribbon.
and not forgetting, see that plaster?
its attached to the ribbon.
it says ' Care Bear! This plaster means i care for you, i really2 do! love faiz. '
his the sweetest little thing.
and get well soon okay?

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this is the video i was talking aboout.
yeahh, aku tau lame.

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lets do a quick bfore aft picture kay?

BEFORE

AFTER

which one do you prefer?

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MIRA, i rindu rambot i.

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oh ya and a quick to note to my friends.
aku tgh cranky nie, so kalo nk call ke msg...get ready for some bitch mode.
mus dah kene dah, sorry k?
only one person can soften me up again.
tapi dier tak reply msg aku laa kan.
kimek gerammm! *inside joke*

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am i given the silent treatment or what.
i dont like it!
noone is entertainning me, tsk tsk.
i was waiting frm 4 plus for my brother to pass me some ciggie.
takder ponn, tak sampai sampai rupenyer.
i cant sleep already.
im hving a terrible headache.
i feel like puking, blearghs.
i just remembered that im gnna stay online till two tday.
but tk boleh laa, i start at 8 tmr, mampos.
speaking of mampos, i became a model for one of the hair stylist.
and okay, dier cakap dier potong siket ajer.
but ended up, BANYAK GILER!
rambot aku dah pendeq.
tsk, tsk.
alaa but still, i need the haircut already.
since ive been keeping my hair for almost 2 years nw.

k bye.

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this song makes the hairs on my neck stand.
im starting to like this type of song.
jazz rightttt?

okay, lets start with something suprising. read edaya blog awhile ago and she said i was mean. am i? i wna find out, im gnna ask everyone and anyone who knows me very well. will tell you the results tmr. lets find out aye d =D

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how rude can people get uh?
*roll eyes*

birthday coming soon, yet i dont feel special.
in fact, i feel unwanted.
also it feels like parts of me is slowing dying.

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Hi, My Name Is Erni. Im 19 And In Love With The Most Beautiful Man Ive Ever Set My Eyes On. The End.